I don't know how this goes
I don't what to say
To tell myself i'm wrong, and forever feel this pain
I know that this will hurt you, but there is no other way
To tell that your greatest fear, is here with me today
If you hate me after this i will understand, but i can not change who i am
All these feelings for those that you instructed me to hate, have turned to love that i live with everyday
Maybe someday i will tell you about my endless shame, but for now i'll just sit here living with this pain
I love them both as you guessed before, i feel like you read my mind when you said what you said
But now i know that you always knew, you just hid it very well
Maybe when i'm older i'll be freed from my pain, but i know that it will stay with me forever all my days
I can not change what i was born with, i feel so confused right now
I wish that you were here tell where i where i'm wrong, but i know that i'll just say i'm not
Does anyone else feel so alone, does anyone else feel like nobody care's
If my darling is there with you, tell that i love her and hope she love's me too
I've felt love once before, it's gone now by your own doing
I have felt it since, but now it's a fadeing memory
I hope these words will wound your heart, like you have wounded mine
I loved you once but thats gone, my hatred towards you will never end
You killed my heart, my love, my peace, my soul, this never ending trama
I will end this someday soon, you will never see me smile again
This was for you, my life writen on the screen
The one who thought the most to me for a time, the one who loved me first
My first teacher, my first mentor, my ex-bestfriend
My Mother
Helen Hanson
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-can-t-change/
