The heart is pouring
My head is roaring.
Pull the duvet back over my head
I've got no reason to get out of bed.
Everything seems to be getting worse
I'm under some kind of evil curse?
I am better off not going out
Not whilst I know he's still about!
I feel like they have trapped me
Retaining me from being able to be free.
My moods keep changing I'm so up and down
Unable to even pull myself together to take myself off into town.
I try to find things to distract me around the home
But sometimes it's all too much, can't even answer the phone.
Staring at the same four walls is slowly driving me insane
But at least I'm safe and unlikely to be subjected to further pain.
I can't be around my friends that long
Cause I don't want to upset them or do anything wrong.
But I don't want to lose them completely
Why do I keep letting the past beat me?
I can't work, my brain's not up to the job
All I do is break down and sob.
I will miss working with some of the people there
But I had to leave, get myself some proper care.
I'm frightened of moving in with my Dad
That I will do something to spoil it and turn it all bad.
Living in a house full of people I don't know
Losing more of my independence, how much heartache is there to go?
Everything is being taken away from me
I don't know who, what or where I want to be!
Depression has taken it's evil hold
I just want to give up, wish I was dead and cold! !
Hannah Davies
http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/depression-39/
